~intoxicated heart~

12 Aug 2008 - all that ends well

I think it's time...

It's time for me to say gudbye...finally

I first started this space in 5 Jul 2005 with my 1st entry yg tahapahapa

so it has been more than 3 years of memories...in this space

the happiness, the sadness, the angers, the broken hearts, the excitements......n of course...those stoopid entries....yg aku mengada2 n pasan best tu laaa

hahahahaha

my accidents, my clumsiness, my poyo-ness, my gedik poses...

my fifi, my b-boy, my mot.mot, my petapa gatal, my kindred soul...

my peeps, my babes, my bestie, my Lisa....

~~macam aku nak migrate gi oversea je kan ehehe

well....as I am ME, I wld need to find space, new space to breathe....

and also, bkos this space wldnt allow me to put up new piccas unless I pay them good moneyy!!!!

shite.

so there...i'm moving to a new space, new domain but with the same name...as I am ME, who shallowly thought (and still is) life wld still be rosey n full with honey, even if it has been proven otherwise...but who knows....Qada dan Qadar bukan di tangan kita

Find me if you can....lalaalaa

and thanks for being with me the whole journey throughout..

thanks for all the comments, good and otherwise...

I love you guys nevertheless!!! and wish you all the best!

CIAO!!

~INTOXICATED~

24 July 2008 - It's a party y'all -> CAPZOOED

Dearest all....

again, i am soooooo dissapointed by the fact that i cant post up any pix in this blog....sbb haku dah exceed bandwidth!!!

Since I do not want to pay these ppl summore, so I posted the flyers in my friendster picture instead... so go look!

It's gonna be another woodstick traders exchange ehehe

CAPZOOED by Threadszoo

at CAPSQUARE CENTRE KL (opposite Asian Heritage Row & opposite AIA building)

on 9 AUG 2008, saturday 12pm - 10pm

& 10 AUG 2208, sunday 12pm - 8pm

There'll be music, fashion bazaar, photography, art installations, drinks, munchies, graffitti & used stuff

It's gonna be great!!!

datang wehhh datanggggggg...I'm gonna be there on Saturday only with a bunch of stuff!!!!!

so sila dtg pada hari sabtuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

and for you guys to see the link and the flyers, you can also go to my sis space -> http://retroisme.blogspot.com/

the map is there toooo!!!

oooh I'm sooooosexcited!

(btw, this is a sticky post so it's gonna be on top for quite sumtime, other entries will be below)

06 Aug 2008 - to buy or not to buy

we all know those online fashion shop blogs.....

mushrooming like there's no tmrw....

i buy from them too....

but I realized, if you wanna start an online fashion shop blog (selling new items), you hv to be competitive, in pricing, designs, n types as well....

coz, ramai sgt yg mostly sell quite the same thing....

when you jump from 1 blog to another, u might feel they are the same or quite the same thing.....

you hv to ensure yours are the edge, the latest, different, cheaper, better looking, full of variety, with all the options to send them COD, by courier, by post...

I had once wanted to do this, looong ago..i mean the online shop thingy but selling my pre-loved only...but since i am one lazy bugger...so takpe lah..

Sum of these online fashion shop get their stocks from local wholesalers, bangkok, jakarta, bandung, even from korea, hongkong & taiwan, not forgetting vietnam...how do I know? well...ive seen those dresses before when i visited sum of the places, n the thing havent been here yet....y didnt i buy yah at that time...

so, when all this ppl getting their stuff from outside & sell them cheaper, those yg take from local wholesalers susah la nak jual barang, coz we, the locals, can even go to that place and buy....& they hv to make sure their within their margins, so tak bole la murah sgt right?

hmmm....

well...how do u keep urself competitive in this business?

how are you going to ensure ppl will buy from you instead of others?

how do u ensure, u r above the rest?

hmmm....think think....

but anyways, do come to my pre-loved items selling at

The Threadszoo y'all!!!

seee yah!

CHEEEEEERSSS!!!!!

17 July 2008 - Faktap

Mencik!

Mencik mencik menciK!

Kenapekaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh????

He cld hv taken the high road.....

but he chose to make me miserable.....Dude, if you dun have the GUTS, never claim the GLORY.

Duhh!!!

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I.am.BORED!!!

Bored out of my brains!!!

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I need to fix sum stuff in my life, but they cost me money...

so I cant afford that...

Bugger!.

So I hv to cont living this kind of life...

Shit.

How laaa to step change??

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I cant wait to go to the beach!!!!

08 July 08 - about her..

When you propose a working woman,

You should marry with these facts firmly grounded in your mind........

Here is a girl, who is as much educated as you are; who is earning almost as much as you do;

One, who has dreams and aspirations just as you have because she is

as human as you are;

One, who has never entered the kitchen in her life just like you or your ister haven't, as she was busy in studies and competing in a system that gives no special concession to girls for their culinary achievements.

One, who has lived and loved her parents & brothers & sisters, almost as much as you do for 20-25 years of her life;

One, who has bravely agreed to leave behind all that, her home, people who love her, to adopt your home, your family, your ways and even your family name,

One, who is somehow expected to be a master-chef from day #1, while you sleep oblivious to her predicament in her new circumstances, environment and that kitchen

One, who is expected to make tea, first thing in the morning and

cook food at the end of the day, even if she is as tired as you are,

maybe more,

and yet never ever expected to complain; to be a servant, a cook, a mother,

a wife, even if she doesn't want to; and is learning just like you are as to what you want from her; and is clumsy and sloppy at times and knows that you won't like it if she is too demanding, or if she learns faster than you;

One, who has her own set of friends, and that includes boys and even men at her workplace too, those, who she knows from school days and yet is

willing to put all that on the back-burners to avoid your irrational

jealousy, unnecessary competition and your inherent insecurities;

Yes, she can drink and dance just as well as you can, but won't, simply because you won't like it, even though you say otherwise

One, who can be late from work once in a while when deadlines, just like yours, are to be met; One, who is doing her level best and wants to make this most important relationship in her entire life a grand success, if you just help her some and trust her;

One, who just wants one thing from you, as you are the only one she

knows in your entire house - Your unstinted support, Your sensitivities

and most importantly - Your understanding, or love, if you may call it.

But not many guys understand this......

Please appreciate "HER" ==========

~i got this from a friend..thought of sharing with you guys...

07 July 08 - tears in heaven

I cried last nite...

he said im unique...there's no word to describe

he said for a girl, im strong...

and i cried....

i asked what's going to happen, because, i need to know....

he said, for me to have been there with him all those years, put up with him, is for him strong

he said, for me to have been through life on my own, when he's gone, is for him strong

he said, for me to have met him again even if the circumstance isnt in my favor, is for him strong

he said, for me to still pick up his calls and talk to him even after he hurt me, is for him strong

he said, im very strong even if i say im not.... im very strong in all sense,

that he,

cant be as strong as me....

and i cried silently...

he said, he dont think he cld be as strong as me...

and i asked him, if he thinks he's not strong enuff, why wld he go through with this...

he cant answer that....

I am so tired of being strong....

~hugs~

03 July 08 - I'm so in love!

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
And now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family.
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanitys and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm yours
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
I like one big family (2nd time: I like happy family)
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

I'm sooooo in love with Jason Mraz!!!!

02 July 08 - FY baru tp aku bohsan

~It is so easy to be cranky....irritable dan sewaktu dgnnya...

apabila byk maknusia2 keliling yg sengal.

~I nvr thought one day I cld ever be stalked. GASP! yeah it's true...n the sad part is, the person didnt realized he is actually stalking me and making everyone around me cam takut camtu...siap ade yg suggest gi amek Temporary Restraining Order...Dramatik kaaaaannnn

To that person, please, like I told you, please stop it...

~I've been tempted to gv in to a "kekasih gelap" kind of realtionshit....but, after weighing the whole thing, aku merasakan, aku lah akan lebih merudum dan remuk dan menderita drp happy....I cld only wish that person wld hv some courage to own up and pursue in daylight.kenapakah dia selfish?

~I read a dearie entries in her blog...I cld feel the sadness, the fear of inadequecy, the fear of being labelled as demanding, the fear of not doing it right this time around, the fear of being left alone..I cant say much about it even if I was feeling all those, like a deja vu, when I was reading it.. I know exactly how it felt, but then again...I cant gv much advise, or be such memandai2...as I am not....but babe, most guys are like that, when they get too comfortable with you...but a fren told me, grab je the guy when he offers you, coz the offer might nvr come twice. I used to make that mistake too...I had been the beralah type, thinking abt his situation and future...but, that same fren also told me, think abt him and you only, dont think of others. Tapi tah la....dah jadi merepek lak ape aku nak ckp...the thing is, i realized, you cant gv advise to ppl who doesnt want it, or doesnt need it...but babe, I feel you...really, I do ~hugs~

~I heard one guy said in the radio, it is better to be the dumper than the dumpee...well....

~to my dearest babe, I'm sad that your relationship is in that stage...I hope you can be cool, calm, rational...maybe the time will past, he's trying I know but your trying too, I know....but,benefit of the doubts....I know you feel like moving on. and lari dr segala2nya.....mencik kan? but babe, you know, i'll be there kan?I really do hope things will work out for you..but at the moment, I really dunno what to say abt the whole thing, but what I know, I want you to be happy....coz I love you....we've been friends like forever kan?

~I need to gain weight

~I need to meet new ppl

~I need foooooodddddddddddddd...kenapakah donia tgh mengalami krisis makanan ha?ha??

aku tak dpt mkn KFC pun aku dah sedey...tambahan pula mereka yg mmg tak penah merasa KFC..si Bie tu pulak bole cerita kat haku kat Haiti dorg mkn mud pie, literally MUD pie..iaitu tanah yg di sift pastu dicampur dgn mentega or sayur dan dikeraskan dan dimakan...dan di india mereka terpaksa memakan tikus lumpur sbb kasta mereka rendah dan mereka tidak dpt bercucuk tanak selepas banjir besar...sedihnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Bie!!! asl ko nak citer menda2 sedey kat haku ha?haaaaa????

~jom pi mkn

~sapa2 nak donate Ipod tak kat haku?

19 June 08 - lawak lawak

baybeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

ade org ingat ko bf hakuuuuu

sbb aku pggl ko baybeeeeeee dlm nie

KAHAKAHAKAHAKAHAKAHA

aku tatau pons ade berbau begitu entry aku utk ko

~lalalalaaaaaa

aku ingat aku dah mentioned baybee tu seorg pompans...tp maybe tak kots

19 June 08 - dont look back in anger

I've posted this entry few days ago even before the last one, but I took it out....but for sum reasons, I'm putting it back..

so here goes..

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hey you...yeah you.....

.

it was a nice nice dinner...thx..the grapes were fantastic haha

I know now, you are reading this piece...but pls, im begging you, dont dig too much ya

sumtimes...ignorance is bliss

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I have come to learn about meddling...a great deal of lesson.

meddle sumtimes is good, but most of the time, it isnt...

but, for me, dgn poyonya aku nak kata, most of the thing that I choose to meddle, it'll turn up ok...but most, I dont want to meddle, even if the parties related wants me to meddle...

coz, if aku tersgt la terrer, i wldnt be where i am right now, innit?

I learnt, that one meddler of mine, took matters to her hands...what she thought was best....maybe the action wasnt right, but it does to her at that point of time, i guess. but it did brought me to the situation that i am in right now.

When I myself was faced with this type of situation before, whereby aku lah org yg plg tahu the truth of what is happening to both my frens, I keep my mouth shut...bg aku, ada reason why my fren did that, n watever she does, aku stand by her, coz she's my fren first. If had I meddled in that relationship n tell the other party abt the truth, they might even not be married n hv babies now..at that point of time, I care abt my (girl) fren's hepiness more than the guy...and I strongly believed, it is not my story to tell...at all.

aku bukanla goody2-two-shoes ponn...but then again, tah laaa..

most of the time, kita akan terpikir balik, betul ke salah ke ape yg kite buat tu and we can all gv justifications to what we did before....utk tenangkan hati sendiri...utk menjaga air muka sendiri....

yeah, that person cld do otherwise, a better meddling actions....but, what is done is undone.

I'm not mad at the meddler....

coz, eventho sum wld say it is a  BIGGGG thing (messing with ppl's life)..but for me, lagi byk kebaikan dia dah buat....ppl changed, and ppl realized their wrong doings...same like me...

I can choose to be upset, dissappointed and watever not, but I also can choose, to remember and menghargai all the other great things that the person has done to me..

I choose NOT to let it bug me. even if, I know that person outted me.

afterall, she is a friend..a very very good friend..

and sbg kawan yg baik, why do we need to think and focus our attention to all the bad things...we cld choose to be positive...buang rasa2 dengki tu, cemburu and all of the penyakit hati....sbb, sebagaimana kita sakit hati dgn perlakuan dia, jgn ingat dia takde rasa sakit hati atau keciwa dgn perlakuan kita...it goes both ways...cuma whether that person choose to say it out loud or just buat tatau jek..that's another story.

It is a lesson......painful, yes...but it is a lesson nevertheless...I hope by that, I can become a better person and the bigger (wo)man..eceh!

~and, I hope you choose what I chose also....

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I've lost weight again.....mengarut tul haku nih...jap naik, jap turun

~sigh~~~~~